This evening has been an emotional one.
We drove to Des Moines and were on the return trip when out of no where I hear from the back seat, "Hey mommy. I have another sister, Aubrie. Remember her?"
We drove to Des Moines and were on the return trip when out of no where I hear from the back seat, "Hey mommy. I have another sister, Aubrie. Remember her?"
Instant heartache.
"Yes baby, I remember Aubrie."
Then there was silence.
Alex turned up the radio, and I spent the remainder of the trip staring out the window at the stars, thinking about our Sunshine and praying.
I've spent so many months being angry. Cursing Christin and Rayne's name and wishing this was over.
Now, when I close my eyes I repeat in my head "let go & let God." God sees all and I know in my heart he will reunite us soon. He will give my children their sister back.
I just have to keep faith.
Now, when I close my eyes I repeat in my head "let go & let God." God sees all and I know in my heart he will reunite us soon. He will give my children their sister back.
I just have to keep faith.
So please excuse me, dear audience, while I write this note that I wish our sweet Aubrie could read.
Hello Sunshine!
We think of you often. Daily in fact. I wish I could put into words exactly how much we miss you, but it's really incomprehensible. The best way to describe it, if I were to even try, would be to say that everything we see, every conversation we have reminds us of you. "You are My Sunshine" replays so often in my head that it's almost as if it were my own personal theme song. If that even makes sense.
All I know is the thought of your little face brings tears to me eyes and a tightening in my chest. I can't believe it's been thirteen months. I'm sure you've changed so much.
I hope that you are happy sweet girl and can't wait to see you again. Your sister is getting so big and looks so much like you. Her personality is a lot like yours as well, so I'm beginning to realize just how much of your papi is in you girls. Lydia is doing well and talks about you often. She misses you the most I think. And your big brother misses you too. He has faith that you will remember all of us when we finally get to pick you up.
We think of you often. Daily in fact. I wish I could put into words exactly how much we miss you, but it's really incomprehensible. The best way to describe it, if I were to even try, would be to say that everything we see, every conversation we have reminds us of you. "You are My Sunshine" replays so often in my head that it's almost as if it were my own personal theme song. If that even makes sense.
All I know is the thought of your little face brings tears to me eyes and a tightening in my chest. I can't believe it's been thirteen months. I'm sure you've changed so much.
I hope that you are happy sweet girl and can't wait to see you again. Your sister is getting so big and looks so much like you. Her personality is a lot like yours as well, so I'm beginning to realize just how much of your papi is in you girls. Lydia is doing well and talks about you often. She misses you the most I think. And your big brother misses you too. He has faith that you will remember all of us when we finally get to pick you up.
We all send you all of our love dear Aubrie.
See you soon ♥
See you soon ♥
Meggy
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Dear Lord,
Please watch over our Sunshine. Please keep her mom safe and help erase the animosity she feels towards us from her heart.
Most importantly Lord please help me to forgive her and Rayne for the hurt they've caused our family.
I know you have a plan for all of us.
Amen
Please watch over our Sunshine. Please keep her mom safe and help erase the animosity she feels towards us from her heart.
Most importantly Lord please help me to forgive her and Rayne for the hurt they've caused our family.
I know you have a plan for all of us.
Amen
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