Moving Forward

I've literally felt like all I've done these last few months is drift by. 
I don't know what my problem is.
This seems to be a pattern for me.

It's amazing that when I'm not writing, all I can think about it is getting to a piece of paper, or my trusty laptop and hammering out this overflow of thoughts I have.  Yet, once equipped with a pencil or keyboard... Nothing.

Nothing comes to mind, nothing comes out. 

This alone took me 10 minutes to type up.

I feel like I have so much inside me to share with the world.  Writing use to be such a passion of mine and now that I've came to the conclusion that I need to start diving into it again, I'm lost.

I'm trying to slowly become a better version of myself. In my mind's eye I picture the "better" me as someone who can wake up each morning, run through a quick morning yoga wake up.  Eat some fruit, drink a cup of coffee, get the kids to school, myself to work, come home, do housework, cook a nutritious and healthy supper, bathe the kids, put them to bed, do a quick nighttime yoga routine, and start the next day.
At some point this "better" version of myself, will learn something new every day, start a hobby, explore new things with my family on the weekends, spend more time enjoying my children and their current stages, and find time to write out my dreams, my frustrations, my advice, my LIFE EXPERIENCE, anything, everything.

However, that's far from my current version of self.

I'm slowly getting back into my yoga routine.  I rarely ever get up early enough to hammer it out let alone get up make breakfast and drink a cup of coffee. 
As for coming home to do housework after a long day of cleaning other people's houses........ HA!  My house looks like it's inhabited by cave people. 

My mother would be ashamed.

I just need to take one day at a time I suppose.  So here it goes for Day Number 1.

-Did a very gratifying yoga sequence -- I feel amazing
-Made a kick ass breakfast -- Eggs, bacon, pancakes, and OJ.. YUM!
-Did the dishes, started laundry, cleaned up our downstairs and had kids clean their rooms
-Got back on this blog and made a new entry --  yay!

I'm becoming DEDICATED to live a better life, starting TODAY! I'm tired of our regular routine. I'm tired of feeling like crap about my life.  I have to make things better and it's going to take a lot of work, but I WILL DO IT!

Until next time my silent audience...